Am I a woman now?

 Am I a woman now

that I've faced many trials and errors

mostly errors

of my own ways.

Now that I am older

with lines on my skin

that was always too pale

but since had too much sun.

Now that I am wiser

and full of regrets

of the lives I could have lived

if I had taken different paths.

Now that I am frozen

under the surface of time

and the illusion that it's infinite

but I've learned has run out.

Now that I am tethered

to a past I don't recognize

and a present I can't hide from

and a future I can't see coming.

Now that I am whole again

of broken pieces glued together

from where the holes used to be

scattered in fragments like glass.

Am I a woman now?